Caislin Hallows University was only a half days journey outside of Sainte Luke, but to Vivian, it wasn't long enough. The carriage she was traveling in seemed to fly down the mysterious countryside. It was comfortable enough. If anything she found it oddly lavish: ornate, gilded panels along the doors and embroidered cushioned seats. The weather was pleasant, clear and bright, as if the sun was encouraging her to smile by kissing her hair and hands as it spilled into the cabin. No. The pace seemed too fast because today was a day of change. This was the day she tried something new. Her throat tightened as she thought of the empty house she left behind, with all the furniture draped and covered like bushes and trees in new fallen snow. The treasures, statues, dishes and vases bundled away in storage. She would miss it. Despite living alone Was already a year? she had grown accustomed to the way the doors creeks and the stairs complained as she climbed them. She would miss Papa's face in the parlor. She took a deep breath to try and calm herself.
It was his wish after all that she attend college. “The finest all-girls boarding schools be damned, you're going to get a education, earn your degree, make friends, break someone's heart! It breaks mine to see you in this house, my lady of Shallot.” She smiled tearfully at this memory, her father bustling about his study showing her papers and articles praising the school. “And just think darling, it's filled with every kind of person imaginable. People who are different and vulnerable just like you." Just like me. She held a small, delicate vile of blood tightly in her hand. Her blood.
Whenever she awoke for the day, Vivian bled herself and kept the blood on her at all times. It didn't hurt anymore, just another daily routine. A vile was a much better alternative than having to improvise in a moment of panic. It was her blood that had caused all the problems, that made it... difficult... to be close to people, to trust them. This gift from Heaven could be a curse from Hell itself at times. Her skin alone was all the reminder she needed. Cautiously, she looked down at the marred hands in her lap. Her eyes locked on a particularly nasty crescent shaped scar on her left hand. A bite, a flash.
A flicker of a twisted face with red eyes, tubes and needles in her arms, fangs at her neck, Papa reaching towards her as she flew away, shouting he loved her, the memories flooding her mind
She gasped for air, bracing herself against the door. The last thing she needed was to recall unpleasant memories on her first day to school. She quickly retrieved a pair of white kid gloves and hurried to put them on, keeping her eyes fixed on the wall ahead of her. School Vivian think of school
Of course she would apply for all the fine arts. Despite perfecting herself to be the ultimate hostess and eventually wife, Maybe, she was eager to learn anything and everything. She inherited her passion for education in any form, inspired by his wisdom and extensive years of school. She read ravenously, would often experiment with her tea steeping, and never shied away from a new lecture on the modern arts. She also wanted to follow in his foot steps, hoping to pursue history of the world or geography. She glanced at her small, rococo print luggage containing what she assumed would be “college essentials”, filled with sketch pads and pencils, some texts books from her father's personal collection and her ink well. Everything else was jostling above her head, tied to the roof. Was it pathetic that she only brought a little case of supplies and two trunks of clothes. No pictures, no expensive jewelry, just herself and the few belongings she honestly felt were hers.
“Excuse me your Grace, we're here”. Vivian was startled by the driver's voice and even more so to find that they were stationary. She didn't move. Her breathing was slightly erratic and her heart was pounding like a metronome awry. “Your Grace?” The driver sounded slightly confused, as if pondering if she was sleeping. “Yes!” She cried out, a little breathless. She cleared her throat. “Yes I'm coming”. With a deep breath she grabbed her small tote and stepped out as the driver opened the door.
She had never seen a place so grand, the dramatic Gothic turrets and buttresses were characteristic of 15th century architecture and the way the building sprawled reminded her of old German estates. Although she didn't see anyone, she was sure there were at least dozens if not over a hundred rooms, each with its own ornate window. She exhaled slowly, taking in the general splendor.
“Here are your things your Grace, would you like me to bring them to your lodgings?”
Again she had forgotten the wizened old man who owned the hackneys from her city. The look in his eyes were hopeful she'd refuse.
“Not at all, I can manage fine, and please, call me Miss Lennox. I'm just the daughter of a man who used to be a Duke. I need no fan-fair.”
She smiled warmly assuring him that the informality was approved. As for insisting on self help, she new this to be a lie but she wasn't about to rely on an elder to do more than sit atop a carriage. She smiled and tipped him generously, making her way to the horses to thank them. Inside her little velvet purse, she presented each of them sugar cubes. Their deep black eyes observed her and they nickered as if in appreciation.
“Thank you for your service darlings, I hope there are some of your kind here” She knew they couldn't understand her but they responded affectionately anyways, nuzzling her shoulder and letting her pet them. Taking another breath to calm her nerves, she turned back towards the school.
The driver thanked her again, apologizing for not staying longer, complaining about something having to do with a storm. While there was not a cloud in the sky, Vivian did know this schools reputation of being...unusual. She waved the driver away smiling pleasantly and watching him as he made his way down the long lane. Going, going, gone. She stood rooted to the spot, staring at the place where the little buggy had disappeared among the trees. Well Papa, I'm here. We're here.
With trembling hands she tucked the vile into her dress, said a prayer, and with trunks in tow, began to walk towards the entry steps. She didn't see anyone near the menacing black doors, but according to a small map she received with her acceptance letter, she was to enter the great hall. As she stepped into the room she gasped in delight. The beautifully preserved displays were obviously the belongings of the founder, Lord Cosgair. Her heart was thrilled as she assessed the materials and time periods they must have served in, lovingly admired the antique weapons and marveled at the elegant armor, reading every plaque. As she meandered across the floor, scouring the ceiling and walls, she heard someone approaching. Tearing her eyes away from the grand, historic room, she prepared herself to meet whoever would register her.
Oh Papa, I wish you were here